I have this obsession with food. I don't think I should write about this but I am anyway. Maybe someone can help me...Diana already kind of knows about it. But anyway, WW has made me obessed with food. I still feel like this huge hippo. Sometimes when I look in the mirrow I feel so skinny, and sometimes when I look I feel like this huge fat loser. I can't stand it. I want to lose more weight but I keep turning to food whenever I get a chance. I cheated yesterday..not bad, but still I shouldn't have done it. I don't know what my problem is. I feel this need to eat. Then I feel all crappy and tell myself I won't eat the next day. I am going to try and exercise today...like after school when we stay behind for drama. Maybe my mom will let me walk for an hour around the gym or something. That would be nice. I doubt it would happen though. This week is going to be crappy. I know it is. I wish I hadn't of cheated at O'Charlies. I know Julie and Tara don't have to worry about the things I do...but still I feel like it is crappy when they pick places like that when they know I can't eat there. But it is not their faught. I think I will just stay home forever. My dad won't buy groceries so we will run out of food soon. Then I will not have to worry about food. I can just come here everyday and not eat. Then I will reach my goal...which is only 5 lbs away..but I am such an idiot that I will never reach it.

Okay, now that I have poured my heart out to the whole school most likely...I will go get ready for school. Bye.

brit

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